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update

2011-12-29T21:23:00.004+08:00

ok, i know my blog had been deserted like an ages! I'm just so so so lazy to update it..

Back from UK like 3 months ago and now started my working life. I feel so regret for coming back so early, shud just apply a new working visa and stay over there. I'm so sick with everything and people over here. I just can't find any word to describe this kind of feeling. How I wish I'm over there. :(

So now, im goin to work hard and save money! Planning to go back Bristol on May or June, perhaps. For travel or watsoever. There are still plenty of countries i havent been to! Greece, santorini! n of coz i wish to go back to prague as well..love the place so so much!

Okay, come back to life here, currently working at Sri Hartamas as a Graphic Designer. Yea right, graphic designer, sounds so unbelievable. I used to study multimedia but now working as graphic designer. That's life..

这几天特别的感触，回想起以前，真的觉得以前的我们是多么的天真无知..看回现在，身边所有的人事物都有多大的改变啊~以前觉得只要天天跟爱的人腻在一起是天下最幸福的事，现在完全是相反的..觉得天天腻在一起是件很累的事..也许能这么说, 我对爱情的看法不同了.. 也或许能说爱情对我来说已变的可有可无.. 我不是那种没有男朋友就会死掉的人，我惯了我行我素，所以当我的男朋友休想能管的了我...也许是因为经历过太多的种种, 所以导致我变得这样..说真的，我还真的有点怕自己变成这样..感觉好像我会太认真的投入一段感情..

其实说真的，没有什么是永远不会变的..就像我的5年感情.. 不知不觉都已经分手两年的..时间过的还真快.. 两年里, 领悟也学习到了很多东西..想必你也应该一样吧? 奇怪的是, 发现到原来我还真的能放下你叻..虽然是用了一年多一点点的时间..原来我是做到的叻..

okay, ignore my random post. Just feel like update it since it is so dead. anyway, have a great day peeps! :)

Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moment that your breath away.

Hola, y bienvenidos a Barcelona!

2011-07-04T22:01:00.013+08:00

Hola, Im finally back from my trip to Barcelona! Enjoy it to the max. But somehow there's someone who spoiled our mood during the whole journey. Anyway, forget about it, I still enjoy it with my rubbish friend. :D

To be honest, I love Barcelona. I love the city even tot there are lot of thieves. It's really a nice city with a superb hot weather during summer time. I wish to stay at there even I don't really know Spanish! hahaha! I had a 5D4N stay at this lovely city. Nice food, nice place and also nice beach! The beach over there is superb nice! and you can saw a lot of naked women on the beach. I bet guys will surely like it! lol.. I went to my favorite football team's stadium, --FCB! awesome shit! Ok, I am lazy to write now...let's look at photos below~

It's FCB!!!

♥ messi!

yes! i am here! FCB!

messi's gold shoes! awesome shiat!!

I can smell the green field! :D

5 pretty gals! lol~~♥

the ice-cream is superb nice~~

I love this place! La Rambla! full of nice food, nice stuffs and nice place!

see the view of barcelona! nice isn't it.

♥ park guell. nice park built by gaudi!

SAGRDA FAMILIA! A roman church that has been under construction

since 1882 and is expected to be done until 2026.

I love the exterior of the building! It's different when you look

it near and far.

the interior is super grand~

look closely, the exterior is built based on the story of Jesus.

La Pedrera (Casa Mila!!) another awesome creation by Gaudi! Idea of irregular shape.

Casa Batllo. Another building build by Gaudi.

Beach!! see the naked woman! wakakaka!

I ♥ beach! the beach over there is super nice! super clean! super blue!

2011-05-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

hola! I am finally free now! Submitted all the final project and I am feeling so free and relax now. :D I don't need to face indesign, illustrator and photoshop everyday. I mean EVERYDAY!! I am going to travel until i broke. wahahaha! Can't wait to see papa mama on July! Can't wait for the awesome trip. I miss them so much. Too bad that my siblings is not able to join the trip coz there's no school holiday..sigh... I miss my sis so much. Btw, even tot we've submitted our final, but still we need to go back and listen the feedback from our tutor. I hope that I wont get a bad result. I just want to pass. That's all. It's ok for not getting 1st honour. I don't mind. lmao~

Moreover, our exhibition is going to launch soon. The saddest part is the publication book for our final, the arrangement of the typo look super horrible. I wonder how can they allow such design to be publish. Wasted our money. *deng*
Ok, gonna stop here...;p

"男人抗拒不了的是新欢，女人抗拒不了的是旧爱..." 你赞成吗?

2011-05-11T08:28:00.003+08:00

你有你的潇洒，你可以肆意的玩弄各种女人。

你可以在你兄弟面前炫耀你又把了几个妹。

你也可以在玩大某个女的肚子后。

不负一点责任的离开。

只因为你是男人。

你可以在心里放着某个自认为深爱的女人，

却在怀里搂着另一个你认为不爱的女人。

你总是以不忍心为由欺骗一个又一个女人的感情，

只因为你是男人。

在没得到某个女人的时候，

你可以为她做所有事，包括伤害自己。

等到得到以后，便开始挑剔，便开始看她不顺眼，

便为自己的花心找一个又一个的理由。

只因为你是男人。

当认识一个新mm，前提是这个mm长得不错，

你就学会了在她面前抱怨，

抱怨自己的现女友有多么

不了解你，不懂你，不支持你，不适合你，

只因为你是男人。

你可以在一个刚认识不到2小时的女人面前言爱，

而忘记了那个与你同风共雨2年的女人。

你天生就爱新鲜感，你天生就喜新厌旧，

即使不爱，你也可以跟她上床，

只因为你是男人。

你习惯口是心非，

习惯用一个谎言去掩盖另一个谎言。

习惯看深爱你的女人落泪，习惯为义气而不顾她的心疼。

不爱的时候，习惯用“你很好，我不配”来收尾。

只因为你是男人。

女人

喜欢被人宠爱，喜欢听假话，

只要那些假话合你的胃口，

总以为地球围着你转，总以为自己是世上最美的人，

看谁都比不上自己，

因为你是女人。

你害怕天黑，害怕孤单，害怕没有人陪。

看韩剧会哭，听忧伤情歌会伤感，你感性且性感。

即使你在人前是个女强人，被黑夜侵蚀的时候，还是会疼。

因为你是女人。

你总以为这个他会陪你天荒地老，

你总以为自己很幸福，

你总以一个固执的姿态去相信他。

你会敏感，你会怀疑，你会害怕，

终因他一个眼神，而放下所有的防备。

因为你是女人。

其实你并没有你的外表那般坚强，

你说其实你一个人，也可以过的很好，

可你不好，很不好，你会因为停电害怕的尖叫。

你会因为电脑中毒而无奈的打开电视。

看见别人成双成对，你只能苦笑。

那些男人很好，却不是你的。

男人，请你好好对他，其实很小，风一吹就走。

女人，请你好好好好对自己，其实很强大，不是谁都能把你击倒。

男人，这个世界美女如云，请别见一个爱一个。真爱只有一次，失去就无法找回来。

女人，这个世界很大，很安全，好人很多很多，下次，下次一定可以遇见一个他，一个很好很好更好更好的他。

男人，不要在多年以后才去感慨，曾经的那个她原来爱的那么真，那么深。

女人，这个世界上唯有一样东西是永恒的，友情会老，爱情会变，唯有亲情是永恒的。

男人，爱一个人要让她知道，女人是天生缺乏安全感的生物，不要把爱放在心里，要不厌其烦的告诉她，你很爱她。

女人，有的男人是不善言辞的，如果他会在半夜的时候为你拉一拉被子，那么请相信，这比玫瑰来的更实在。

男人，其实有时候你很坏，可还是有个傻瓜很爱很爱。

女人，其实有时候你很好，可还是有个笨蛋不会珍惜。

男人，如果，是说如果，如果有个女人说她视你如命，你一定要坚信，那一定是真的。

女人，如果有个男人会经常看你看到忘我，或傻笑，那他绝对爱上了你。

男人，所有的女人都很坚强，也很脆弱，每个女人都是独一无二的水晶，请好好保护属于你的水晶。

女人，你可能曾经被谁谁谁伤害过，但不要害怕，不要绝望，天黑了还是会亮。

男人，因为是男人，所以责任很大，所以说过的话一定要兑现。

女人，不要因为你是女人就过分依赖，你是独立的，永远。难过的时候可以哭，可是哭完，一定要微笑。

男人抗拒不了的是新欢，女人抗拒不了的是旧爱... 你赞同吗? :)

明年你还爱我吗?

2011-05-06T06:48:00.002+08:00

今天在网上看到了一篇文章, 觉得很值得分享~~

梁靜茹結婚了。

證婚人是李宗盛，伴娘是戴佩妮，蔡健雅。

瑪莎沒有收到婚禮邀請，他說他不會去。

她和瑪莎就這樣形同陌路了。

梁靜茹最終也沒有和瑪莎在一起。

那陣子，劉燁結婚了。

他在婚禮前，把自己關起來哭了好長時間。

曾經說著：“這輩子最幸福的事，就是娶謝娜，只要她願意嫁給我，我現在就可以娶她“ 的人就這樣和另外一個女人結婚了。

劉燁說，他一輩子都不會忘了謝娜。

可是這樣的話聽著都會覺得傷感。

劉燁最終也沒有和謝娜在一起。

那個說著非謝娜不娶的劉燁，也結婚了，娶了一個法國女人。

看著謝娜的自傳裡有一部分是說她和劉燁的。

6年的感情讓她們彼此都成長了不少。

謝娜說他們在大家都不看好的時候堅強的在一起，卻在大家都對他們祝福的時候分開了。

6年！

那個說著非李大齊不嫁的周迅，也單身了。

不知道是為什麼，只知道，他們5年的感情，會成為他們彼此生命中最精彩的時光。

5年！

之前辛曉琪在演唱會上，再次唱響那首“領悟“時，哭的如此傷心，痛徹心扉。

辛曉琪最終也沒有和愛的人在一起，想必是真的領悟了。

我們，一直都是在輸給時間。

所以說，這年頭，還有什麼能讓我們動心，讓我們相信呢。

陳昇曾做過件很煽情的事。

他提前一年預售了自己演唱會的門票，僅限情侶購買，一人的價格可以獲得兩個席位。

但是，一份情侶券分為男生券和女生券。

戀人雙方各自保存屬於自己的那張券，一年後，兩張券合在一起才能奏效。

票當然賣得很快，也許這個是戀人雙方證明自己愛情的方式吧。

“我們要在一起一輩子呢。”

“一年，算什麼。”

……

這場演唱會的名字叫做：明年你還愛我嗎？

聽似很簡單的疑問句，實現起來，卻被赤裸裸的現實擊敗。

到了第二年，陳昇專設的情侶席位，果然空了好多位子。

他面對著那一個個空板凳，臉上帶著怪異的歉意，唱了最後一首歌：把悲傷留給自己

去年我們曾牽手走過很多地方，在車站擁抱，一起看電影，往彼此的嘴巴里塞零食和飲料，一起幻想明年的這個時候，甚至是很多很多年以後，我們在幹嘛，要幹嘛。

可是感情的脆弱我們誰也想不到。

這一秒幸福，下一秒就可以崩潰。

戀情，崩盤起來，往往太措手不及。

再多的甜言蜜語，累積起來也敵不過分手兩個字。

世界上有太多的悲哀。

曾經多麼驕傲的要一起幸福一輩子，到頭來卻剩下自己。

不想再奢望什麼了，一個人靜靜的躲在角落裡，欣賞你們的幸福。

夜的黑暗與我做伴，躲在被窩裡，真的體會到了思念的痛，痛卻不能說...

其實自己不是那麼矯情的，其實難過不想告訴任何人的...

漸漸發現，痛，就自己忍著。

即使說，也無從說起...

只想問，你能愛我多久...

相戀多年的人們就這樣形同陌路，彼此生活。

或許，他們並不是不愛對方了，而是不能給對方各自要的生活。

應該相信，他們或許依然愛著對方。

只是，一個不懂得怎麼去愛，一個相愛卻無能為力。

生活就是這樣，最終相守到老的人，也許並不是那個曾經許下山盟海誓，承諾白頭偕老，暗自發誓這輩子只愛她一個的人。

終究，終究時間會帶走一切。

到底是什麼讓我們鬆開了彼此的手？

到底是什麼讓我們放棄了自己，放棄了對方？

會一直說真的沒什麼，然後又對著別人的故事沉默。

表面終究會歸於平靜，只是內心的波濤洶湧卻不為人知。

只有自己才知道，誰是自己真正愛的那個人，誰又是傷了自己的那個人。

所以最後的最後，當我們都有了彼此的歸屬，你只能是我記憶中模糊地剪影而已。

一個女人突然決絕的跟相愛五年的男友分了手，閃電般嫁了他人。

她說她要結婚，她實在等不起了，而他雖然愛她，卻根本沒有一點這方面的意思。

過了幾年，男人也結婚了。

那個新娘其實未必比她出色多少，或者這一次他的愛有多麼深，只不過她出現的時機實在太好了，剛剛好在他萌生倦意想安定下來的時候。

於是，不需要什麼更好的理由了，她來得正是時候，那麼，就是她了。

其實我們尋尋覓覓了那麼久，遍嚐每一次愛情的甜蜜與艱辛，而最後選擇的愛人，不過就是在我們心意動時，經過身邊的那一個。

什麼青梅竹馬，什麼心有靈犀，什麼一見鍾情，都不過是些錦上添花的藉口，

時間才是冥冥中一切的主宰。

回首往事的時候，想起那些如流星般劃過生命的愛情，我們常常會把彼此的錯過歸咎為緣分。

其實說到底，緣分是那麼虛幻抽象的一個概念，

真正影響我們的，往往就是那一時三刻相遇與相愛的時機。

男女之間的交往，充滿了猶疑忐忑的不確定與欲言又止的矜持，一個小小的變數，就可以完全改變選擇的方向。

如果你出現的早一點，也許她就不會和另一個人十指緊扣;又或者相遇的再晚一點，晚到兩個人在各自的愛情經歷中慢慢學會了包容和體諒，善待和妥協。

在你最美麗的時候，你遇見了誰？

在你深愛一個人的時候，她又陪在誰身邊？

在你心靈最脆弱的時候，又是誰在與她同行

愛情到底給了你多少時間，去相遇和分離，去選擇和後悔？

重溫“大話西遊”看到紫霞深愛至尊寶的時候，他心心念念的尋找他的白晶晶，而當他終於看到了她留在心裡的那一滴淚，卻已經失去了選擇的權利。

每一次看到他潛入另一個人的身體，去償還前世欠她的一句承諾，再看他在夕陽下孤獨的走遠，總是情不自禁的想要落淚。

不是不心動，不是不後悔，但已經沒有時間，再去相擁。

如果愛一個人而無法在一起，相愛卻無法在適當的時間相遇，如果你愛了，卻愛不對時間，除了珍藏那一滴心底的淚，無言的走遠，你又能有什麼選擇？

時間的荒野，沒有早一步也沒有晚一步，

於千萬人之中，去邂逅自己的愛人，那是太難得的緣分，

更多的時候，我們只是在彼此不斷的錯過，錯過了楊花飄飛的春，又錯過了楓葉瑟索的秋，

直到漫天白雪，年華不再，

在一次次的心酸感嘆之後，才能終於了解。

即使真摯，即使親密，即使兩個人都已是心有戚戚，我們的愛，依然需要時間來成全和考驗。

這世界有著太多這樣那樣的限制與隱秘的禁忌，又有太多難以預測的變故和身不由己的離離合合，一個轉身，也許就已經一輩子錯過。

多年以後，才會參透所有的爭取和努力，都抵不過命運開的一個玩笑。

上帝在雲端只眨了一眨眼，所有的結局，就都已經完全改變......

後記：

20歲的時候愛上他的帥氣，

22歲離開他因為他的孩子氣

然後你遇到了30歲的人，

沒有陽光帥氣的外表，卻擁有成熟和穩重讓你安心的一切。

你怎樣任性耍賴30的他都會讓著你，

你怎樣揮霍發洩30的他都會罩著你。

你眼中的30是他長大的模樣，30眼中的你是他年輕時的她。

30曾經像22的他一樣孩子氣，然後她離開了30

22的他30歲的時候也會擁有一個22歲的女孩，事情總是這樣循環往復

十年後當這個男孩蛻變成一個2230男人，

他要感謝你，你的離開讓他學會了成熟。

感觸：

聽說你結婚了，聽說你有孩子了，聽說你們過的很開心

多好的事情，我為你開心，自己卻有點後悔。

如果新郎是我，你在婚禮上是不是更美。

多少年沒見了，我卻還是會記得你，

多少年過去了，你卻依然在我的心裡。

我們為自己設了個圈，自己繞阿繞的，總也出不了這個圈。

明年，你還愛我麼？

mylifeissosucks.

2011-05-02T03:27:00.003+08:00

My life is so bored and sucks during this holiday. I am so fed up with those so called final project. I hate it to the max. How I wish the final is in the next few days, but not the next 2 weeks. To be honest, I don't think that I'm doing a nice piece of work for this final. For me, it is just all what the tutor wanted to see, but not what I wanted to do. sigh. Well, I have start working since last Monday. Yes, I am working now! Lot of peoples feel so surprise when I told them I started to work. Well, wat to do? I wanted to treat my parent to travel without spending their own money, except for the flight. *what a good daughter huh? lol* That's y I am working now. Feel good to earn my own money without asking from my dad. I can buy whatever I like! woots~~

Instead of working for the babi final project, I was also busy planning the trip for my parent. It's so annoying for searching those information for different country. But thanks for my uncle's help for helping us decide where to go. :) Yes, I can't wait for the trip to Switzerland! My dream country! finally... weeeee~~ I can't wait to get on to the highest alps and my camera is ready to shot lot of beautiful scenery! :D

Anyhow, I still need to face the reality---final project. Ok, I am seriously fed up with it and really pissed off. I don't know what else I can do. Facing the photoshop, illustrator and flash everyday, but I did nothing. A big clap to myself. :) Ok, I should back for my work now.

Ok, I think I will just off to sleep. wahahaa.

♥ ee wen.

Dublin

2011-04-24T03:51:00.008+08:00

Hola, I back from Dublin. :D Thanks to sheen for treating me like a princess for the whole trip. She bought me to visit lot of places and treat me a lot of nice food! :) thanks so much. It was a short trip since she can just get a few days holiday. Still, it was a nice trip.

During the trip, we went to the famous Guinness factory in dublin, Cliffs of moher and also my favorite place-Galway bay. We called it as 天涯海角~haaaa~ Feel so relax while sitting on the bay.. How good would it be if my "fiance" was there with me~~hahahahaha!! *lmao*

I love the view on the bay. Listening to the wave and enjoying the strong wind. Feel so nice. Is the best time to emo. lol.. Not going to write too much. Let's proceed to the photos! :D

is Guinness factory!

my own perfect pint! :)

seriously, the taste is totally different with what we used

to drink in malaysia. The Guinness in Dublin

taste so sweet and nice! love it!

I am here!

and I got a certificate for pouring my own pint of Guinness!

the weather is so bad when we heading to the cliff of moher. :(

Cliff of Moher.

love the Galway bay so much! ♥

we are here! 天涯海角！

hooray!

分享.

2011-04-19T02:15:00.002+08:00

你可知道
当女人被男人
脱去自己的衣服
一丝不挂的在他面前
是需要多少的爱

你可知道
女人为什么会背朝你睡
因为她不喜欢看你的背影
如果你以后抱着她睡
她会安心一整个晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的爱情
当作是初恋
也是这辈子最后一个来爱

你可知道
女人那么爱吃醋不是因为不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望这种美好倒映在别的女人眼中

你可知道
深爱你的女人在冲你发火以后
自己却转身不断哭泣

你可知道
当女人顶着哭花的脸
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她时
她的心已经快要死了

你可知道
她只会对她爱的男人唠叨
也只会对她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性她的坏脾气
其实都只是在对你撒娇
希望你更重视她

你可知道
假若她不爱你
她根本不会对你发火
不会希望你去哄她
更不会为你掉眼泪

因为她不爱的人没那本事

你可知道
当你离开她
留下她独自一人
她有多大的期待和恐惧

而这一切都只是因为她爱你
而这一切都因为你还不够懂她

女人知道太多不该知道的事情
男人不知道太多该知道的事情

于是.你们争吵.你认为她脾气不好.她认为你不够迁就她……
于是.你们冷战.你以为她没有完全接受你，她以为你不在乎她……

请给她一个拥抱一个吻.用你的拥抱你的吻去化解她心里的悲伤和眼角的泪水.
因为她只是害怕你的冷漠、转身和安静....

两个深爱的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相体谅，互相信任，
否则当你们真正失去时将会遗憾终生....
否则美好的未来也就在你们自己手中泯灭了......

希望每一个男人都能够好好珍惜陪伴在你身边的女人

她们为你付出过，不求回报
却希望你们能够读懂，能够牵着她们的手坚定地走下去

不要让爱你的女人流泪
不要让她伤心

更不要让她绝望和死心！
因为女人一旦真爱了，失去她爱着的人
就意味着失去了整个世界...

我怀念的不是哪个人, 而是我那回不去的曾经...

2011-04-03T08:51:00.008+08:00

Some people were supposed to walk into your life, teach you a lesson and then walk away.. Never regret about something that once made you smile. You are the reason why I became stronger, but still, you are my weakness.

I like to present myself, I miss our past. We met at the wrong time, but separated at the right time. The most urgent is to take the most beautiful scenery, the deepest wound was the most real emotions. If we can only encounter each other rather than stay with each other, then I wish we had never encountered.

Lesson learned: Never be dependent anyone in this world . Because even your shadow leaves you when you’re in the dark.

I always miss you ,so i miss you and finally i miss you..So i miss you so much now. :)

I am not emo..I am just too free and feel like having an emo post. An emo post doesn't mean that I am emo right now.

Cheers,

♥ ee wen. :)

所谓的朋友

2011-04-01T04:57:00.010+08:00

我的朋友不算少, 中小学的朋友, College 的朋友, 大学的朋友, 还有些因某些活动或朋友介绍下认识的朋友...但是真正能聊起心事来的,就非那班从小认识到大的死党们莫属...

ok,跟这班死党们,真的什么事都能聊, 互相zat来zat去, 都不会有问题, 因为认识久了...知道大家早就习惯了这样的沟通方式..其实蛮多人会羡慕我们有这样一班一起吃喝玩乐, 一起废到极点的朋友... 有时真的感觉还蛮庆幸能有这班一起颠的朋友...

可是, 现实总是不完美的...或许是随着年龄的增长, 一起聚会的时间也越来越少...有的也到了外国深造, 所以一起聚会更是比较难的事...有时候约些朋友出来, 放飞机的放飞机, 找一堆烂借口推掉的也有些...总而言之, 约他们出来就好像在祈求神明一样, 要看他们的脸色/心情...一个字形容--“闲”.. 我不喜欢去求他们出来聚会, 可是有时还是会低声下去的去约他们出来... 有时场面还蛮尴尬的, 因为也会有没话题聊的时候... 说穿了, 今年都已经22岁了, 你们以为往后真的还有那么多的时间能聚在一起喝茶谈天吗? 别傻了, 现在约出来都已经是那么难了, 更何况是以后?

这么多年的朋友, 应该不会有什么争吵或误会的...可是, 偏偏最近这种事就是发生在我身上...一堆的误会, 一堆的猜测, 结果导致我们之间产生了误会, 说实在, 我并不会无缘无故的去误会某些事或人... 别人说我, 我解释一两次后, 就不会再去跟你解释这么多..因为我知道时间能证明一切, 我也没必要浪费那时间去向他们解释那么多, 所谓清者自清.. 真的是我朋友的那些, 根本就不会去误会,更不会自己在那边说些有的没的.. 真正了解我的朋友只要向我求真事实后, 他们绝对不会再继续说些有的没的来伤害我, 因为这一切有助于破坏我们之间的友情... 曾经的我们是无所不谈, 吵来吵去是必定的, 而且还时常一起出去看电影或吃喝玩乐的朋友，现在你却因为某些事, 对我的态度开始改变, 说些有的没的来伤害我(或许你不觉得你说的话有伤害到我..) 就连回复信息也能感觉的出你在敷衍我...我无言........说实在, 我还蛮伤心的...

偏偏有些人或事都不是在掌握之中, 误会你的还是会继续误会你, 他们也有办法颠倒是非, 把一些没有的事说到真的有那样..我真的很无言..... 有时候, 我沉默, 不代表我默认...我只是懒得跟你们解释或辩驳..我没有那么多的闲情...

我这个人就是这样,大剌剌, 有话直说, 认识我的朋友都知道我的脾气和个性..说真的, 我不是在夸奖自己... 我是个很讲义气的人, 对朋友, 我是掏心掏肺, 两肋插刀的人...朋友有事, 我会毫不犹豫的帮忙...因为我深信朋友就是要掏出个真心对待的... 但如果你们对我不仁, 我也会对你们不义... 一辈子或许也找不到这么投缘的朋友了...所以朋友的事就是我的事.. 朋友对我来说真的扮演着一个很重要的角色, 我就是那种没有朋友会死的人!

朋友有很多种..成就你的朋友, 支持你的朋友, 志同道合的朋友, 牵线搭桥的朋友, 开阔眼界的朋友, 给你引路的朋友, 陪伴你的朋友...我这一生中隐隐约约有几个这样的朋友吧...我不求什么, 只希望我们的友谊不变, 偶尔出来聚一聚, 这就足够了.. 人生就不过是如此嘛...

ps: 没有emo, 只是突然有感而发...:)

seriously in love with this song.

2011-03-29T20:49:00.003+08:00

"‎你说你想离开，我说OK.我真的OK.....

于是我只剩下一丝逞强，在假洒脱:"我们都不愿意认输.我们都不想摔跤."

除了I'm Okay,还能说什么？于是用主动的姿态被动的离开.

用骄傲的表情沮丧的微笑."

天终于亮了吧背对背的沙发

时针分针和秒针都不说话

我们选择沉默泪在胃里酸化

还有伤悲但不挣扎

昨夜雨很大

我们没吵架沉默如刀狠狠划下

就算了吧

就算我先说

不爱啦

就算了吧

你要我先说

放弃吧

泪挺我不掉落

退到自己最陌生的角落

剩下一丝逞强在假洒脱

现在我有什么

不Okay

天早就亮了吧寂寞的双人桌

时针分针秒针还是不说话

自己选择沉默就当我是哑巴

怕一开口伤太赤裸

昨夜雨没下

我们没吵架只是伤口还没结痂

我和你，的爱情，连续剧，的结局

那甜蜜，总属于，男主角的你

我终于，也认清，原来你，早写好续集

还是你，的爱情，我已经，没参与

那甜蜜，总属于，男主角的你

她靠近，我离去，随便你,随便你...

算了吧，就算我先说，不爱啦

就算了吧，你要我先说，放弃吧

泪掉落，不难过

退到你拥抱围成的角落

你走后是一片天空海阔

现在我，没什么，I'm Okay...

I'm Okay

future and career.

2011-03-27T02:49:00.004+08:00

Wow, seems like my blog have been neglected for a long long time..haaa~

btw, I am having a tough weeks due to the final is around the corner plus the easter break is coming soon too. Everyone is busying and suffering for the final outcome because all of us was struggling of what exactly are we doing and what is this subject about.

To be honest, as a multimedia background graduated student, it is really hard for me to adapt the way of teaching at here. Moreover, the course that I am taking is Graphic Design. It's kinda hard for me to start everything from 0 and directly entry to the final year. I don't know anything about graphic design, the way they working to brainstorming idea and the way they produce their work. We used to created some beautiful artwork even tough we can't really present it well, but as long as our work can represent our idea and it is nice enough, that consider as a nice artwork. But, it was totally different at here. It doesn't matter if you can't create a beautiful artwork, as long as you can crap a lot and talk until how awesome your work is, then this is consider as a successful and nice piece of artwork. Hell, this is really killing me, because I duno how to crap!

Seems like not everyone know that there are no exam for design course. All we working is tons of small projects. That is our so called 'exam.' Well, people always thought that since there are no exam in design course, it should be very easy and wouldn't feel as stress as those who are studying medical and so on. But, this is totally wrong! Design course is not as easy as what people thought. Design is not about whatever you design, as long as it is nice enough, your client or the tutor will agree your idea. Doesn't means that the design you like is exactly what your client like.

That's why design field is quite hard for those who working as designer to survive. I was kinda worry about my future and career. 2 more months to graduate, I really need to think and plan for my future. Dad ask me to study master, but I think I can't really handle it. I knew it's a good chance and opportunity for me to study master, but even degree I already feel stress and almost give up, how can I handle master? I know it sure gonna be lots of thesis to be written for master study. I hate writing. I cant bullshit and crap for those thesis. I am not like those local student at here which are used to craps around. lol. I needed to thanks god if I can successfully graduated from my degree..lol..*finger crossed* and work hard. :)

life is so fragile

2011-03-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

Received a message from my friend around 12.30am (uk time) that our friend's mum passed away in the midnight. She death coz of suffocate while on the way rushing to hospital. I am really shocked and down while heard this news. It's hurt every time I heard the news about death of someone around me.. Life is so fragile, we will never know what is going to happen on the next second, we will never know what are waiting us for the next...We should be thankful and appreciate every single moment that life offers... Stay strong and be tough my friend, we know you can go through this even thought it is a hard moment... we will always support you..

Rest in peace, aunty.. you will always in our mind..:,(

my blessed new year

2011-02-24T00:59:00.017+08:00

ok, i know i am a bit too late for this update. But, who care..hahaha.. I just feel like blogging lo..*wink* So yea, I spent my CNY with my beloved family and friends. To be honest, it's really a bored new year...perhaps we are getting older, can't really feel the new year atmosphere. But still, need to thanks dad for letting me fly back to celebrate new year with them. :) I know they miss me a lot and so do I.♥

Thing never went smoothly when you are expected for something good happen. Yea, I was sick on the 4th day I back to Msia. Hell yea. I can't join for my babi gang gathering because of the sickness. sigghh. Yet, I still able to met up with my gals. The last time I met them is like half year ago..lol.. So,we decide to have a small gathering.. just four of us, too bad that others can't make it, because lot of them are going back to hometown for new year.

Nothing special happen in this new year..everyone is still the same.. The only thing change is the time of gathering between our gang had become lesser. Every time when we ask for drinking, a lot of them are giving excuse and refuse to come out have a drink. I duno what exactly happen to them..but all of us do feel that the time of gathering have become lesser and the friendship between us are changing too. :( Just like what my nini said: "经过时间的洗礼，再深再好的友情，都会有变质的一天..." this is so true isn't it?

travel alone for 6882 miles. carrying 3 heavy bags..it's killing me..

it's worth for travelling so long just to see them.

i love them. :) ♥

That night, daddy bought us to one my favorite restaurant '海外天'

for our dinner. Papa is ♥....awww...i miss all those dishes..

Im so satisfied with the dinner! :)

is yao char guai! yummy! I can't find any nice yao char guai in UK lo!

daddy know that I am craving for bak kut teh, so end up bringing

us for bak kut teh as dinner in the 2nd day. :D

I am a happy girl. weeeee~~

owh, I love this bubble milk tea. nice. But I still prefer

the bubble milk tea located opposite Sunway.

Meet up with the girls and had this bunny pic. haha. :D

Mummy is busy decorating the house for chinese new year.

is ah san birthday! A homemade birthday cake from me, nini & ah ngan

for her 22nd birthday. happy birthday my dear! :)

as usual, our drinking session.. haha.. talking non stop..

pattern liao liao.. that's our style..lol

Yes, is my darling cousin, my little notti princess. They are back to

Temerloh for new year. Look how cute she is? sitting on my bro and

watch movie together. haha. I like this pic! cute to the max!! ♥

ok, my sisters and cousin all are so 38..keep asking me to put on the nail polish..

I guess i need to charge them lo..hahaha

It's the reunion dinner! Mummy's cooking is always the best! Awesome!

the notti gal is tying up her hair...so notti~~wanna cubit her face..hahaha

Kid are queuing up for angpau~haha

mummy was waiting them to say something nice before giving them angpau..

hahahaha..the best one owiz is 祝你青春美丽~lol

is my cousin brother's birthday. What a lucky boy having birthday

on the 1st day of new year. (lunar calender)

Happy birthday jek kee! :D

This notti girl keep saying the cake is not nice, but end up keep eating!

hahaha! I want to cubit her laaa~~~issshhh

I always love to watch firework. Dunno why, it remind me of something

and people. haaaa..

This is really funny, all of us never play this before. kongming lanterns or chinese lanterns?

I don't really know the exactly name of this lantern in english lo..

All of us were so excited and keep on writing our wishes on the lantern..

hahahaha~~so 'sua gu'.. we are shouting while letting it get up to the sky! lol!!

I heart them. :) ♥

They are always the best girls in my life~

It's time for letting it fly la~~fly as high as you can la~~lol~~

mahjong session! This is always a must play game during CNY! lol!

I am so bek cek loo! the 1st time ever i got

4 'fei'! but end up 'small husband!' wada fark!!

I never play poker before. My very 1st time to try this game.. wuahaha..

Every year during CNY, there are always drinking session in my cousin house.

Their house are always the most happening 1 during CNY.

That's the babi that keep forcing me to drink drink drink! sei babi! haha

(ps: all the photos are grab from winchin dai gor..haha)

i ♥ this.

lousang arrr~

Mafia session at bob's house..everyone was laughing n shouting..haha

I wish the time will stop at the moment, so that I can stay at

my lovely hometown, but not going back to BRISTOL!!!!!!

Still, I need to face the reality..im finally back to bristol laaaaaa~~sighh~

and yeah! I have move to a new house! look at my room!

a double bed room~so nice lo~I can just spent my whole day

sleeping and doing ntg.. wahahaha

bought a piggy from msia..so that i have something to hug

when im sleeping. :)

♥

im seriously fall in love with kinder beuno! ♥ a wide wide smile. :)))

♥

2011-02-12T02:54:00.001+08:00

那阳光 碎裂在熟悉场景 好安静

一个人 能背多少的往事 真不轻

谁的笑 谁的温暖的手心 我着迷

伤痕好像都变成了曾经

全剧终 看见满场空座椅灯亮起

这故事 好像真实又像虚幻的情景

只是那好不容易被说服 的自己

借口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行

再一次我就不会走向这样的结局

好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去

我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机

对不起 独自回荡在空气 没人听

最后又是孤单到天明

真的痛 总是来得很轻盈没声音

从背后 慢慢缓缓抱着我就像你

你和我 还有很多的地方 还没去

为何留我荒唐的坐在这里

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行

再一次 我就不会走向这样的结局

好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去

我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机

对不起 独自回荡在空气 没人听

最后又是孤单到天明

最后又是孤单到天明.......

2011-01-26T12:06:00.002+08:00

Imma currently having a 2 weeks holiday and yes, I am back to my lovely hometown. :D

Feel so relax to be in hometown. Try not to think about my assignment at this moment. haha

And yes! He have brighten up my day! what else i can say? Imma really having a big smile on my face coz of him. haaa. :D

2011-01-07T11:54:00.003+08:00

Found an article from the web. quite meaningful.

有個人、愛過了、就結束了..

有句話、說過了、就後悔了..

有道傷、痛過了、就麻木了..

有顆心、顫過了、就破碎了..

一段親情、過密了、就斷絕了..

一段友情、過近了、就稀釋了..

一段愛情、過深了、就劇終了..

一段路口、過難了、就錯選了..

有些東西、時間放久了、就會變質的..

有些事物、發展很久了、也會變質的..

有些感情、時間和距離、是會貶值的..

有些傷痛、醞釀得越久、發作得越厲害..

有時候、想說出那三個字、卻沒勇氣..

有時候、想說出另三個字、卻狠不下心..

有時候、想刻意記得、卻總是忘記..

有時候、想可以忘記、卻總是敗筆..

唯一一個人、想愛、可不能..

唯一一個人、想恨、不可能..

唯一一個人、想留、卻無能..

唯一一個人、想放、卻不能..

戀著一個人、天使從不曾離開..

想著一個人、眼睛從開始睜開..

望著一個人、目光在哪裡停留..

夢見一個人、微笑何時在嘴邊..

想說、我還喜歡你

想問、還喜歡我不

想懂、你在想什麼

想裝、所有的痛傷

想忘、那美好的過去

想憶、卻漸漸逝去

想靜、卻心煩意亂

想哭、卻淚已流...

oh well, i was freaking bored that time

so that I came out with this as my wallpaper. haa~

happy brand new year!

2011-01-01T07:44:00.005+08:00

Happy 2011. New year, new life.. Wish everyone have a wonderful 2011 !! wish all my dreams come true in this brand new year and forget all the sadness! Oh well, if you ask me what is the most precious moment in the 2010? Well, the answer is "NOTHING!". haha. I should said that i had nothing memorable since the end of 2009 throughout the whole 2010. I had a terrible year in 2010, lost my phone, lost my DSLR battery, lost my friend's headphone and a lot more unlucky things. Luck is against me for the freaking whole year..sigh..

So, less pray and work hard for this brand new year! Hope everything went smoothly and I am able to accomplish what I want. I need to spent less and work hard in the coming month..is the last semester and I am going to graduate soon! haha, damn excited when I think about it. I must make sure myself gone thru the whole semester with a flying color result! *hiak hiak* we shall see. ;)

successfully graduate for my degree.
have a nice graduation photo with daddy mummy.♥
travel for at least 5 countries in my MUST go list!
work for a part-time.
update my portfolio, resume and CV.
buy a compact camera. (if i have extra money..)

basically, that's the to do list for myself in this coming months. Ohyea, I am going back very very soon..for CNY! Can't wait for the date to arrive, I am going to talk and eat non-stop with papa mama..awww...i miss them so badly! Yet but not least, I cant wait to hang out with my dearest gang..See ya! =)

有种低沉的心情...

2010-12-30T06:20:00.004+08:00

A-Lin- 给我一个理由忘记你

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5FlN-NBGo8

雨都停了这片天灰什么呢
我还记得你说我们要快乐
深夜里的脚步声总是刺耳
害怕寂寞就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭着

给我一个理由忘记那么爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边
却在我的心里

当我走在去过的每个地方
总会听到你那最自由的笑
当我回到一个人住的地方
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那件外套
只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人

每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭着

给我一个理由忘记那么爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边
却在我的心里

我找不到理由忘记大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃我等你的决心
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边
却在我的心里
我想你....

hell!

2010-12-22T03:50:00.006+08:00

hell! what else can I say?? my 2 weeks holiday to denmark, sweden and finland is totally ruined up coz of the fucking snow!! I hate snow!! I really hate snow! It bring lot of troubles for us when it's snowing! I'm now doing nothing at here! at this freaking bored place!! I want to go back bristol right now! yea, but my friends all are coming to london, so i will meet up with them and go back together...I cant wait to see them! i am damn fucking bored at here! I never felt so upset before! darn it!

Some how, it make me miss those precious moment coz of someone....I miss it like hell.. I knew that I miss it.. I need a MASSIVE HUG right now! All I need is just a hug!! Can someone just slap me and ask me not to think about it anymore?? :,( I shouldn't think about it anymore!!! NO!!!

I MISS IT!!!! I WANT IT BACK!!!!! :,( SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME A TIME TRAVEL MACHINE!!! ARRRGGGHHHH!!!

part of the life.

2010-12-14T08:04:00.002+08:00

去年的今天, 我单身了~单身并不是件可怕的事~哈哈~

其实到现在, 我还真的搞不清楚真正分手的原因..不过, 我也不想再追问..

在很和谐平静的情况下, 我们分手了...

结束了应该有5年的恋情~

我记得当我们说出“分手”, 这两个字的是后, 我并没有哭...

也刚好, 那段时间跟家人一起到外地旅行, 所以没心思去伤心吧?

但, 分手后的一个月, 那一天, 我哭了...彻彻底底的痛哭...从来没试过这么的崩溃...

只有那一天...第二天睡醒就当作没这么一回事~哈哈~

不能否认, 有时还是会不断回忆起以前的种种, 但只是回忆, 不是因为放不下还是什么的~

纯粹的不小心想起而已..

这一年里, 在没有他的陪伴下, 我学会了独立, 学会了一个人...

以前的我, 什么事都把他放在第一位, 任何决定都会为他考虑...

分手后, 才发现到原来爱情并不是全部..也在这是才了解到家人比一切来得重要..

我承认我并不是一个成熟的孩子, 但经过这些事后, 开始察觉到自己的思想开始变成熟了..(ps: 我身边的朋友也这么认为, 不是我个人觉得咯.)

一個人久了，會懶得戀愛
一個人久了，朋友會越重要
一個人久了，會越來越喜歡聽歌
一個人久了，電話會常常忘記帶
一個人久了，就會養成一個怪癖
一個人久了，對愛情會越來越挑剔

一個人久了，除了寂寞點外還是蠻開心的
一個人久了，會慢慢變得成熟起來
一個人久了，會比以前更重視更愛父母，更重視親情
一個人久了，對所有的節日大多沒甚麼期待
一個人久了，聽到看到別人一對對的很甜蜜，心裡多少還是會有些介意

一個人久了，會喜歡買很多無謂東西，帶自己去很多很遠的地方
一個人久了，會覺得無拘無束自由自在天寬地廣
一個人久了，愛情會變得越來越不重要，取而代之的是錢和事業
一個人久了，會越來越理性，越來越現實

總之，一個人久了，是很幸福的時光。。。

即使有一點點無聊和寂寞
但是游走在自己的街道上
甚麼都可以無所謂沒有任何束縛

可是原來。。。
一個人久了，是會上癮的。。。

我对你，只有放弃，没有忘记...我唯一没有做好的事，就是说了 “我爱你！”

虽然你不是个很好很好的男朋友, 但你还是我最爱的那一个~(这一生应该不会再找到个更爱的了吧~)

正所谓人是没有十全十美的嘛~我也不见得是个很好的女朋友咯~

谢谢你在这段日子里带给我的欢笑, 悲伤..这一切会是我成长美好的回忆~

虽然分手了, 但还是回希望你过得好, 吃得饱, 睡得好~~哈哈哈~

当然希望还能做回朋友啦~毕竟再见还是朋友嘛..

虽然我知道你还是很看不开, 不能把我当朋友看待~(看fb就是很好的证明咯, 还有几次的巧遇..不要抵赖.:))

但是, time will prove everything! 希望你看开点啦~~*ngek ngek ngek*

谢谢你让我长大成熟了! :)

ps:这纯属本人的想法, 不代表我还爱着他! Please be clear. :)

memories of my childhood.

2010-11-28T06:42:00.010+08:00

"From 20 to 27 November change your profile picture on Facebook for a cartoon of a hero of your childhood and invite your friends to do the same... These days will celebrate WEEK OF THE RIGHTS OF THE CHILDREN! Post it share it, because we care about the kids. "

So when i saw this post, there are ton of childhood memories appear on my mind. I recall back those memories when i was a kid, from kid to teenager. I still remember when i was a kid, i have lot of dolls. Yeap, i means lots! teddy bear, barbie doll, doggie, mickey mouse etc. Perhaps i was the 1st child of my parents, that's why they bought me a lot of dolls and I love all of them! hehe. In my mind, my favorite doll when i was a kid was pink panther! My parent bought me a super huge pink panther and two little tiny pink panthers for me when i was around 3-4 years old. Every night, i need to hug them to sleep.♥

When i was growing up, mummy was trying to help me throw away the bad habit of hugging dolls to sleep. She always say that it's bad for our respiratory system especially if hugging those furry dolls to sleep. So, she try to cheat me that she already throw away my pinky panther and i remember that i cried for few nights coz of hugging nothing to sleep. Yet, recently, when i was tidy up my stuffs, i found that my 3 favorite pink panthers was actually store in a big box in the store room. awwww. I was damn happy when i found it. haa. It remind me my childhood. hiak.

But nowadays i was actually hugging my piggy to sleep. To be honest, i can't sleep well without hugging the pig. That's why after i came to here, I can't really sleep well. So, i try to buy lot of pillows pretend to replace my piggy. haha. I know i'm stupid for being so childish, but i really can't sleep well without hugging it.

so, this is my favorite character when i was small. mr. pink panther.

I laugh like hell when i saw this.

Banana in Pajamas! haha.

one of my favorite cartoon when i was

a kid. funny. haha

Yeap, powerpuff girl. My favorite cartoon network

cartoon character ever!

Cinderella. The prettiest princess ever.

I bet lot of peoples watch this when they were kid!

Is teletubbies! haha.

I used to watch this with my sibling and cousin.

I always said that i am Thinky winky (purple color 1)

coz im the eldest, and tinky winky is the

eldest too in the teletubbies family! hehe

Of course, sailormoon. prettiest heroine ever!

Okay, perhaps peoples will think that

im kinda tomboy for watching this kind of

cartoon. But, to be honest, this is freaking awesome!

Digimon Adventure is the best adventure cartoon ever!

I used to watch this with all my sibling and cousins!

We always gather together after bought the cd

and feeling so excited everytime we

watch this! hahaha. I really enjoy every single

time with my cousins and siblings when we

are watching this!

My neighbor totoro by Miyazaki Hayao. My favorite japenese

anime all the time!

I have watched this for thousand times,

but i never get bored on watching it.

I love the graphic and all the character

inside this movie.

The opening title is just so cute! awww ♥

long mao! the little girl was sleeping on totoro. cute. ♥

Miyazaki Hayao - Sipirited away

Another nice film from him. He never disappointed

his audience with his new work! The character

of his film always look cute and the graphic is damn nice!

Nice story, nice character, nice graphic!

That's a successful film!

This is damn cute, isn't it? ♥

Even tot they are not the main character of

this film, but i really love them to the max!

grrrr....i feel like pinch them! so damn cute! isssh..♥

Yet, but not least. This is the film that I was crazy-ing

with recently. It was written and directed by

Miyazaki Hayao.

he is awesome, don't you think so?

the best japenese cartoon director ever.

Well, the story is about a goldfish named Ponyo who fall in love with

a five-year-old human boy,

Sōsuke, and wants to become a human girl.

She is so cute and pretty. I really fall in love with her. hiak hiak.

♥

look at the graphic and color mood. It was

freaking awesome! I really love it to the max! ♥

I wanna watch it so badly right now! grrr~~~ can't download it. sigh. I should bring the dvd along. aikss. So, these was the childhood memories and my favorite cartoon character.

Have a great day and enjoys! ♥

article to share.

2010-11-19T07:56:00.003+08:00

如果两个人分手之后做了朋友, 那说明我从來沒爱过你.

如果两个人分手以后依旧可以做分手之前做的事, 那说明我想让你记住我.

如果两个人分手之后我不再见你并大声说我恨你, 那说明我不捨得离开你.

如果两个人分手之后在彼此的世界消失了, 那说明我真的爱你.

分手時, 沉默是最好的问题, 最圆满的答案.

恋爱是甜蜜的,分手是难免的. 谁不是哭过几次, 痛过几次, 才找到最后的愛. 分手是必经的,但有些问題不必问.

1.不要问: 為什么要分手.

无论答案是什么, 都是你难以接受的原因.

2.不要问: 你有沒有爱过我.

爱过如何, 未爱过又如何,总之這一刻就是不爱.

3.不要问: 我做错了些什麼.

爱不是讲对错, 而是讲感觉.. 相爱是谈情, 不是讲理. 当爱的感觉已經不存在, 对或错又可以挽回些什么?

4.不要问:我有什麼不好.她有什么好.我有什么比不上她.

何必逼对方,再一次侮辱你, 打击你的自信心.

5.不要问:难道你不记得我們以前快乐的日子了吗.

她/他要离开你,就是因为她/他要现在的快乐,和將來的快乐.

6.不要问:不如我們重新来过.

这个哀求,只会让对方觉得你更可怜,更卑微.

7.不要问:我们以后还可不可以做朋友.

这样拖泥帶水,对方只会感到厌烦.

我一直说一句话…爱是最美好的记憶. 爱过了,曾经拥有过了, 就要学会知足, 何必为难对方, 让曾经的美好变了味道. 让她/他曾经給过的温柔成为孤独時温暖自己的美妙的回憶. 回憶是美丽的…珍藏走过的轨迹…握紧现有幸福…

♥♥♥

addicted. ♥

2010-11-12T05:13:00.006+08:00

Oh well, the busy week is coming again~ 3 project brief come on together. Oh yes, say hi to sleepless night. I feel so stress everytime the lecturer starting to brief on the new project. Well, perhaps it was too different from what we have used to do during diploma. sigh. I wish to go back to the time when i was still studying in toa. But, life still gonna go on. I still need to face the truth no matter how stress I feel. argh, hope that I can handle those projects. God bless me! haha. Oh yea, something happy to share of, im gonna go back to malaysia during CNY~weee, imma so excited! Can't wait to see papa mama, sis, bro and all my beloved friends! =)

So, here are some song to share of. Imma addicted in this 2 songs. Freaking nice.♥

房祖名 & 龚芝怡 - 最好的我

我不在乎什么天长地久我只在乎你想不想要拥有
一颗真心和温暖的手在身后陪你微笑或泪流
我不在乎你下次回来待多久我只在乎这心动前所未有
我不会走 Coz I Love You So
想给你最好的我就算只是朋友

还想和你做朋友
想念 your big brown eyes 可爱的 lips I wanna kiss
I miss 想一直牵着你的手
但我还年轻心不定又能怎么办

Boy 有什么话开不了口 No worries 我只是用脑想过头
拥有了又想自由自由又想拥有

等待着空逛着有话别保留
他们说刮风的时候你总选择要一个人颤抖

Guess You'll Never Know Coz I'll Never Show

信不过别人把你追走也信不过自己暂时把你拥有
你低头喝着酒别只顾喝着酒
做朋友是保护你最坏也是最好的藉口

我明白要你爱是荒谬的要求我明白有些默契我必须要遵守
只是你眼眸走漏了一种
BABY BABY 想爱不能爱的哀愁

Hey 好久不见重记得你钟意听
不如不见记得以前和你分享我的担心
烦恼还有我的骄傲但现在我们之间却变得越来越有礼貌

When we broke up 你的朋友一定拍手说好
现在你身边的他们大概都不喜欢我
但是我还是我我还一样地活
The reason why 我决定离开
There is Only One Reason
Why Coz I know you deserve better and more
没了我大家信不过的那个星座你一定要好好生活别想太多
为什么我写了这首歌只想用心对你说

I love you and I still do I love you now
But It is just in a different way if I may
Hey Be sure I know you used to love me more (appreciate)
But now as a friend
我知道当我离开世界的那一天你一定会流泪在我的照片前面

and I do the same now coz I watch you man

coz you have always be like my family to me

这不是秘密但是你身边仍没有几多人知

流过的泪说过的话仍在我心中

虽然已经失去你以后如果在街上碰到你和你心爱的那个谁

不后退我会微笑带礼貌地欣然面对

ps: I wish you luck wish you health wish you love with a smile

and a hug I wish you luck wish you health wish you love with his smile and his hug

我不在乎你下次回来待多久我只在乎这心动前所未有
Coz I Love You So
想给你最好的我就算只是朋友

我不在乎什么天长地久我只在乎你想不想要拥有

一颗真心和温暖的手在身后陪你微笑或泪流

我不在乎你下次回来待多久我只在乎这心动前所未有
我不会走 Coz I Love You So
想给你最好的我就算只是朋友

美人鱼-徐若瑄

我是一条沒有人养的魚背着自由面无表情
彩色眼睛　受伤的心只有看到黑白的你

我像一条沒有人养的魚我的悲伤你不在意
说过的话飄過脸夹我无法揮去一切重新再来

捨不得我为什么说再见能不能收回我说的每一句話
捨不得我为什么不忘记做一条快乐美人魚

(总是在夜里我不停的想妳　妳的每个笑在我心里是最重要的氧气
总是在心里　大喊着我还是深爱着妳
现在这片海洋少了妳只剩下我和妳游过的甜蜜回憶）

你的温柔总是來了又去我的孤单（不稀罕同情）
你的电话忍住不打我不想变成习惯等你回來

捨不得我为什么说再见能不能收回我说的每一句話
捨不得我为什么不忘记做一条快乐美人魚

捨不得我为什么说再见 (不用再说不必再做)
能不能收回我说的每一句话 (其实说得再多做得再多还不是因为我还不想忘记那些漫漫漫漫的从前）

捨不得我为什么不忘记 (我听见月亮也在偷偷为了我哭泣我逃避自己我的心为何始终不想放弃)
做一条快乐美人魚 (大声告诉自己应该別再继续孤单的游回彼此心中的那片幸福大海里)
游向幸福的 (游回彼此的) 大海里

the big day ♥

2010-11-09T08:21:00.004+08:00

well, i know my blog is like half dead.

but, i am really trying my best to keep it update, just, im too lazy. wahahaha. Life was so good so far, nothing bad or special happened. Assignment due date is just past, so it's quite free at this moment, yet, the new project brief is coming soon. I can sense that the sleepless night gonna come soon. sigh. So yea, im going to have my blog update with my 21st birthday and my awesome trip to london.

p/s: all the birthday photos is from wei tian. thankiu. :)

having one of my favorite drinks-long island. ♥

25 shoot of tequila that make me puke. :S

imma the birthday girl! wohoo! im officially 21. :D

zeryun. ♥

wee~my present. ♥

my girls. ♥

the gang.

guys, thanks for the present. i love it. :) ♥

oh yeah! im now officially 21! thanks daddy mummy for bringing me to the world! thanks my frens for the celebration and thanks for all the wishes.

So after the celebration of my birthday, the next day we are heading to london for a 3 days 2 night trip. It was quite a successful trip, but the saddest part is we have no enough time to go for shopping. awww. I don't even got the chance to visit the Emirates stadium and also the Chelsea FC stadium. sigh. I swear i will go there shopping soon! I wanna shopping so badly! (yes, i know im kinda bad daughter, always spent money without planning, sorry papi, promise that i will started saving after the shopping session in london, ok? *evil laugh*)

Here go the photos of my trip to london. enjoy. :)

the very 1st day, we went to hyde park. 1 of the famous park in london i guess.

Well, the park is super big and we get lost inside the park! scary~

see!! the swan is walking around the lake. so nice~

an old man is feeding the birds and swans.

funny picture taken inside the park's mirror. haha.

St. Albert Statue

forgot what museum is this. quite nice.

It's Harrods! omg! I feel like shopping like a bitch when I went into Harrods!

Luckily I can still control myself. haha.

I swear, I will go back there and shop until i broke! lol~*papi is going to kill me*

Police here riding on a horse to go on patrol. Cool right?

Changing of the guard.

This group of guard is ready to exchange the duty with the previous guard.

I love their fluffy hat! It called as bearskins.

The gang. :)

Do you guys know what I love about overseas country?

Yes, is the sky! I love the sky so much!

I know actually the sky is just the same no matter

where you at,

but don't you feel that the sky at overseas

country is super nice? lol

this is one of my favorite photos of the day! ♥

Ok, I found this signboard is super funny.

Eye look at left, car look at right?

all of us laugh like hell when saw this signboard. *lmao*

chinatown.

is yao zhar guai!! im so gam dong when saw this!

yet, it doesn't taste nice as what we expected.

三烧饭！我最爱的烧肉！wahahaha!

the national gallery. didn't went in, too pack and we are rushing

to the next destination.

Trafalgar square.

bigben. ♥

Yes! is bigben! I can't believe that I'm in london!

and im now standing beside bigben! omg!

bigben is ♥!

super close up. (wei tian, can you open ur eyes pls? haha)

westminster abbey

is london eye! super nice! love it!

london bridge is falling down falling down falling down. ♥

tower bridge. 1 of the most go place in the london.

As there was a taiwan food festival on the last day we stay in london,

so we went for there, searching for some nice food. hehe

卤肉饭~awesome.♥

people mountain people sea.

according to the reporter, there are 3000 peoples

going for the festival. crazy!

time to say bye bye to london.

catching our coach at london victoria station.

That's all for my post for my 21st big day and the awesome trip. Stay tunes for the next post. hehe. Hopefully im not lazy to keep my blog alive. cheers.

oh yeah, i saw my ex in the taiwan food festival. lmao. Well, he act like didn't saw me and at the end told my friend that I act like didn't saw him. So wtf. Is you acting like never saw me kay?? funny! 再见也是朋友咯, 拜托你看开点啦！请你搞清楚看不开的是谁咯, kay?? :)

记忆中....我记得.

2010-11-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一
天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们
都不知道会不会有以后
谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么
说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等着对
方先说想分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

♥ 我的潘帅. ♥

2010-11-01T06:33:00.008+08:00

啊啊啊啊~最近迷上了这部戏 “爱无限.

其实, 我并不是那些很爱追看偶像剧的人..

只是在我闷得发疯, 或是在朋友的推荐之下, 我才会追来看.

这套戏, 是由我最帅的潘玮珀主演.

看着两个人从陌生到相爱, 再转变成陌生人, 很戏剧化.

男主角因某些原因在没有理由的情况下, 离开了女主角三年.

而女主角一直相信男主角有天会回到她身边, 所以默默等了他三年.

就还蛮喜欢这套戏的. 大部分的原因是因为由我的潘帅主演. wahaha. XD

主题曲蛮好听的, 由潘玮珀演唱的-我们都怕痛.

歌词蛮有意思的.

女主角还蛮可爱的. ♥

sweet. ♥ ♥ ♥

他很帅吧? 超帅, 超可爱! ♥

大部分男生都是这样失去女朋友的

2010-10-29T05:57:00.005+08:00

found an article that's freaking nice. It's exactly writing the feeling of a girl.

追求的时候当人家是宝，永远保持着最好的一面...

刚到手的时候疼人家到骨子里去，每天给她打十几个电话，发几十条信息，她说什么你都铭记在心，想吃什么、想买什么、想去哪里你都会尽全力去满足，温柔体贴无微不至，巴不得二十四个小时都能跟她呆在一起；一开始总是包容的，就算她的生活习惯与你不同也会努力的调试配合，一切一切都是美好的...

久了，腻了！每天别说几十个电话，就连1个电话都懒得打，打电话时只说具体情况，把那些觉得无关要紧的“情趣”话都省了；信息就更不用说了，她发10条你回有一半你就觉得你回的已经够多了，就连她打电话给你你都觉得她啰嗦！

你不会再为她想吃早点而早早起床，你不会再为她排队买她想要东西，你不会专门请假带她去她想去的地方，你会觉得她什么事都依赖着你，让你觉得她麻烦事特多！

接着你会发现她的缺点越来越多，她的优点快被她的缺点掩盖，你快忍无可忍！

最后，厌了！潇洒的用“分手吧！”一句简单的言语结束了复杂的感情；或耗着等着，直到有一天她受不了忽冷忽热或若即若离的态度自己选择离开，你还可以说是她自己离你而去，你没有负心...

男人，你记不记得你曾经说过：“我永远都会对你这么好，一辈子都这样爱着你宠着你！”

不是她麻烦事特多，是你一开始就说得做得太到位，才会让她依赖上你！

你记不记得你曾经说过：“不管多晚，睡不着都可以打电话给我，我的手机24小时都为你开机！”

那你又嫌她不体贴，白天工作的时候打电话打扰到你，辛苦了一天晚上要睡觉了她还缠着你不肯挂线。是谁让她养成何时何地想打电话给你就打电话给你的习惯？

她无理取闹那是因为从某一个时间段你的态度变了，你开始冷落她了；让她觉得没了安全感，由使她起疑心！不是她不信任你，不给你空间，而是她爱你，在乎你，用尽所有时间去关心你，你的生活细微改变都牵扯着她的情绪！

她脾气不好那是因为她有很多时候知道了很多事情，但你不说，她都选择沉默，在一直沉默；积压到一定的时间她们就会爆发心中的所有怨气；要知道，这一些都不是她脾气不好，是你不够细心发觉，她们是一直积压下来的！

她不再跟以前一样动人当初是谁说不喜欢她每天变化多端像只花蝴蝶，是谁说喜欢她素颜的清纯模样？

虽说喜新厌旧是人性，除了毛主席跟古董以外，什么东西看久了都会审美疲劳；但她不是东西，她是个活生生有着感情的人！

你不再给她答案，不再给她承诺，不希望你以后做不到让这些答案跟承诺变成谎言那你以前又给她那么多答案，给她那么多承诺，现在为自己铺好后路可以前承诺过的叫她怎么忘记？

女人不怕诺言没实现，怕的是你承诺了又不去实现，最后实不实现是另一个问题！

你忙，你没时间没精力讨好她，你不知道她现在在想什么？

那你以前不忙吗？你以前是不是就把全部时间用来讨好她而不用工作？

那你以前怎么都那么细心观察她在想什么？

你觉得你们不配，你不想她再浪费感情在这段没结果的爱情上

那你一开始追她干嘛？做实验啊？她都已经浪费这么多感情了，你当感情是水龙头啊，说开就开说关就关！

对，这一切都是你给自己找的借口！

别以为换个女朋友就可以永远摆脱那种感情暗淡时期，因为不久的将来你还是得回到这种时光，下个女朋友也是，下下个女朋友也是，下下下个女朋友也是，有种你一辈子不谈恋爱不结婚...

男人们，看完了回想一下你们的那段美好时光，趁现在没有人偷偷想想是不是你们给自己找借口了？

那个以前深爱的女人现在就那么不值得你爱了么？别说你瞎了狗眼以前才会跟她在一起，因为你没瞎，也请不要侮辱到狗！

后悔分手的赶快努力从新追回来，以后用心经营着共有的感情！

其实女人要的很简单，只想要一个爱自己男人就够了...

想要分手的考虑清楚，并不是每段感情都可以挽回的！

考虑太久也不行，因为她们可以忍耐你冷落她一段时间，但不会一辈子傻下去；她们再怎么傻，也会给自己一个时间段，去忍受你的冷落，去相信你的爱；但时间一到，她们会毫不犹豫的离开，到那时再多的甜言蜜语都没有用了，因为这世界上没有谁离开谁就活不了！

恋爱中的，好好珍惜现在那个愿意照顾你，体谅你，愿意陪你承担风雨的傻女人吧！

过了这个村，或许就没这个店了...

到时间结婚的就结婚吧，不要再拖拖拉拉婆婆妈妈；结婚证一领就像买了保险，至少心里都有底了...

爱情，就像煮粥！滚烫的时候加点配料它就是够火候又有滋有味的；等到忘记关火煮焦了的时候，你闻都不想闻它甚至你连锅都想把它扔了...

21岁生日快乐. ♥

2010-10-21T05:31:00.004+08:00

从某天开始，我不再喜欢过生日，也不再喜欢许下什么生日愿望.

很多人都说生日许下的愿望都能成真，这都是骗人的吧?

这21年来,我许过的愿望从来就没成真,没实现过.

可笑吧? 加上某些原因, 我不再喜欢过生日, 更不喜欢在生日的时候许下愿望.

但是还是要谢谢朋友们的祝福. 谢啦. :)

记得去年生日, 我也是一直在播着这首歌, 可能有点适合现在的感觉吧~

祝我生日快乐.

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难像切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你带一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐

Back to december...

2010-10-14T07:27:00.003+08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

Small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothin but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December turn around and make it all right

I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

Then I think about summer all the beautiful times

I watched you laughin from the passenger side

And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your lovin all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothin but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door I understand

This is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothin but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December turn around and make it all right

I go back to December turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

all the time...