loser

I lost everything. i lost myself, my confidence, my dignity, my happiness, i lost it all. the fact is, im the loser in this game. im so confused,im so helpless and i can feel the loneliness. I just wanna shout and tell you that i miss you, yea, i knew i always do. everything that i do, remind me and you. every place that i went, i saw the shadow of you. the scene when we always used to hang out together pop up in my mind. Do you knw that actually i dare not to went to malacca? i knew i'll cry if i went thr, too much memories we had at thr... after 2 months,finally, i cried... i thought my life will be better even though thr's no you in my life, but im wrong. definitely wrong! yeah, i am the loser! i lost everything cause you're everything in my life. Everyone is telling me that time can heal everything. but how??? Im totally collapse after 2 months..2months, y it mz be after 2 months?? after 2 mnths oni i realize that i really cant put it down, yeah it's my fault for falling to deep in this relationship, im so sorry that i jz cant put it down. I knew that i can't put it down, im so soorry, but i just can't do anything about it.. Do you see how much i need you right now? I know time can't turn back anything...i will still miss you anyway..sorry, my dear....