future and career.

Wow, seems like my blog have been neglected for a long long time..haaa~

btw, I am having a tough weeks due to the final is around the corner plus the easter break is coming soon too. Everyone is busying and suffering for the final outcome because all of us was struggling of what exactly are we doing and what is this subject about.

To be honest, as a multimedia background graduated student, it is really hard for me to adapt the way of teaching at here. Moreover, the course that I am taking is Graphic Design. It's kinda hard for me to start everything from 0 and directly entry to the final year. I don't know anything about graphic design, the way they working to brainstorming idea and the way they produce their work. We used to created some beautiful artwork even tough we can't really present it well, but as long as our work can represent our idea and it is nice enough, that consider as a nice artwork. But, it was totally different at here. It doesn't matter if you can't create a beautiful artwork, as long as you can crap a lot and talk until how awesome your work is, then this is consider as a successful and nice piece of artwork. Hell, this is really killing me, because I duno how to crap!

Seems like not everyone know that there are no exam for design course. All we working is tons of small projects. That is our so called 'exam.' Well, people always thought that since there are no exam in design course, it should be very easy and wouldn't feel as stress as those who are studying medical and so on. But, this is totally wrong! Design course is not as easy as what people thought. Design is not about whatever you design, as long as it is nice enough, your client or the tutor will agree your idea. Doesn't means that the design you like is exactly what your client like.

That's why design field is quite hard for those who working as designer to survive. I was kinda worry about my future and career. 2 more months to graduate, I really need to think and plan for my future. Dad ask me to study master, but I think I can't really handle it. I knew it's a good chance and opportunity for me to study master, but even degree I already feel stress and almost give up, how can I handle master? I know it sure gonna be lots of thesis to be written for master study. I hate writing. I cant bullshit and crap for those thesis. I am not like those local student at here which are used to craps around. lol. I needed to thanks god if I can successfully graduated from my degree..lol..*finger crossed* and work hard. :)

life is so fragile

Received a message from my friend around 12.30am (uk time) that our friend's mum passed away in the midnight. She death coz of suffocate while on the way rushing to hospital. I am really shocked and down while heard this news. It's hurt every time I heard the news about death of someone around me.. Life is so fragile, we will never know what is going to happen on the next second, we will never know what are waiting us for the next...We should be thankful and appreciate every single moment that life offers... Stay strong and be tough my friend, we know you can go through this even thought it is a hard moment... we will always support you..

Rest in peace, aunty.. you will always in our mind..:,(

my blessed new year

ok, i know i am a bit too late for this update. But, who care..hahaha.. I just feel like blogging lo..*wink* So yea, I spent my CNY with my beloved family and friends. To be honest, it's really a bored new year...perhaps we are getting older, can't really feel the new year atmosphere. But still, need to thanks dad for letting me fly back to celebrate new year with them. :) I know they miss me a lot and so do I.♥

Thing never went smoothly when you are expected for something good happen. Yea, I was sick on the 4th day I back to Msia. Hell yea. I can't join for my babi gang gathering because of the sickness. sigghh. Yet, I still able to met up with my gals. The last time I met them is like half year ago..lol.. So,we decide to have a small gathering.. just four of us, too bad that others can't make it, because lot of them are going back to hometown for new year.

Nothing special happen in this new year..everyone is still the same.. The only thing change is the time of gathering between our gang had become lesser. Every time when we ask for drinking, a lot of them are giving excuse and refuse to come out have a drink. I duno what exactly happen to them..but all of us do feel that the time of gathering have become lesser and the friendship between us are changing too. :( Just like what my nini said: "经过时间的洗礼，再深再好的友情，都会有变质的一天..." this is so true isn't it?

travel alone for 6882 miles. carrying 3 heavy bags..it's killing me..

it's worth for travelling so long just to see them.

i love them. :) ♥

That night, daddy bought us to one my favorite restaurant 

for our dinner. Papa is ♥....awww...i miss all those dishes..

Im so satisfied with the dinner! :)

is yao char guai! yummy! I can't find any nice yao char guai in UK lo!

daddy know that I am craving for bak kut teh, so end up bringing

us for bak kut teh as dinner in the 2nd day. :D

I am a happy girl. weeeee~~

owh, I love this bubble milk tea. nice. But I still prefer

the bubble milk tea located opposite Sunway.

Meet up with the girls and had this bunny pic. haha. :D

Mummy is busy decorating the house for chinese new year.

is ah san birthday! A homemade birthday cake from me, nini & ah ngan

for her 22nd birthday. happy birthday my dear! :)

as usual, our drinking session.. haha.. talking non stop..

pattern liao liao.. that's our style..lol

Yes, is my darling cousin, my little notti princess. They are back to

Temerloh for new year. Look how cute she is? sitting on my bro and

watch movie together. haha. I like this pic! cute to the max!! ♥

ok, my sisters and cousin all are so 38..keep asking me to put on the nail polish..

I guess i need to charge them lo..hahaha

It's the reunion dinner! Mummy's cooking is always the best! Awesome!

the notti gal is tying up her hair...so notti~~wanna cubit her face..hahaha

Kid are queuing up for angpau~haha

mummy was waiting them to say something nice before giving them angpau..

hahahaha..the best one owiz is 祝你青春美丽~lol

is my cousin brother's birthday. What a lucky boy having birthday

on the 1st day of new year. (lunar calender)

Happy birthday jek kee! :D

This notti girl keep saying the cake is not nice, but end up keep eating!

hahaha! I want to cubit her laaa~~~issshhh

I always love to watch firework. Dunno why, it remind me of something

and people. haaaa..

This is really funny, all of us never play this before. kongming lanterns or chinese lanterns?

I don't really know the exactly name of this lantern in english lo..

All of us were so excited and keep on writing our wishes on the lantern..

hahahaha~~so 'sua gu'.. we are shouting while letting it get up to the sky! lol!!

I heart them. :) ♥

They are always the best girls in my life~

It's time for letting it fly la~~fly as high as you can la~~lol~~

mahjong session! This is always a must play game during CNY! lol!

I am so bek cek loo! the 1st time ever i got

4 'fei'! but end up 'small husband!' wada fark!!

I never play poker before. My very 1st time to try this game.. wuahaha..

Every year during CNY, there are always drinking session in my cousin house.

Their house are always the most happening 1 during CNY.

That's the babi that keep forcing me to drink drink drink! sei babi! haha

(ps: all the photos are grab from winchin dai gor..haha)

i ♥ this.

lousang arrr~

Mafia session at bob's house..everyone was laughing n shouting..haha

I wish the time will stop at the moment, so that I can stay at

my lovely hometown..

Still, I need to face the reality..im finally back to bristol laaaaaa~~sighh~

and yeah! I have move to a new house! look at my room!

a double bed room~so nice lo~I can just spent my whole day

sleeping and doing ntg.. wahahaha

bought a piggy from msia..so that i have something to hug

when im sleeping. :)

♥

im seriously fall in love with kinder beuno! ♥ a wide wide smile. :)))

♥

那阳光 碎裂在熟悉场景 好安静 

一个人 能背多少的往事 真不轻 

谁的笑 谁的温暖的手心 我着迷 

伤痕好像都变成了曾经  

全剧终 看见满场空座椅灯亮起 

这故事 好像真实又像虚幻的情景 

只是那好不容易被说服 的自己

借口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭 

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行 

再一次我就不会走向这样的结局 

好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去 

我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机 

对不起 独自回荡在空气 没人听 

最后又是孤单到天明  

真的痛 总是来得很轻盈没声音 

从背后 慢慢缓缓抱着我就像你 

你和我 还有很多的地方 还没去 

为何留我荒唐的坐在这里  

好后悔 好伤心 想重来 行不行 

再一次 我就不会走向这样的结局

好后悔 好伤心 谁把我 放回去 

我愿意 付出所有来换一个时光机  

对不起 独自回荡在空气 没人听 

最后又是孤单到天明 

最后又是孤单到天明.......

Imma currently having a 2 weeks holiday and yes, I am back to my lovely hometown. :D

Feel so relax to be in hometown. Try not to think about my assignment at this moment. haha

And yes! He have brighten up my day! what else i can say? Imma really having a big smile on my face coz of him. haaa. :D

Found an article from the web. quite meaningful.

有個人、愛過了、就結束了..

有句話、說過了、就後悔了..

有道傷、痛過了、就麻木了..

有顆心、顫過了、就破碎了..

一段親情、過密了、就斷絕了..

一段友情、過近了、就稀釋了..

一段愛情、過深了、就劇終了..

一段路口、過難了、就錯選了..

有些東西、時間放久了、就會變質的..

有些事物、發展很久了、也會變質的..

有些感情、時間和距離、是會貶值的..

有些傷痛、醞釀得越久、發作得越厲害..

有時候、想說出那三個字、卻沒勇氣..

有時候、想說出另三個字、卻狠不下心..

有時候、想刻意記得、卻總是忘記..

有時候、想可以忘記、卻總是敗筆..

唯一一個人、想愛、可不能..

唯一一個人、想恨、不可能..

唯一一個人、想留、卻無能..

唯一一個人、想放、卻不能..

戀著一個人、天使從不曾離開..

想著一個人、眼睛從開始睜開..

望著一個人、目光在哪裡停留..

夢見一個人、微笑何時在嘴邊..

想說、我還喜歡你

想問、還喜歡我不

想懂、你在想什麼

想裝、所有的痛傷

想忘、那美好的過去

想憶、卻漸漸逝去

想靜、卻心煩意亂

想哭、卻淚已流...

oh well, i was freaking bored that time

so that I came out with this as my wallpaper. haa~

happy brand new year!

Happy 2011. New year, new life.. Wish everyone have a wonderful 2011 !! wish all my dreams come true in this brand new year and forget all the sadness! Oh well, if you ask me what is the most precious moment in the 2010? Well, the answer is "NOTHING!". haha. I should said that i had nothing memorable since the end of 2009 throughout the whole 2010. I had a terrible year in 2010, lost my phone, lost my DSLR battery, lost my friend's headphone and a lot more unlucky things. Luck is against me for the freaking whole year..sigh..

So, less pray and work hard for this brand new year! Hope everything went smoothly and I am able to accomplish what I want. I need to spent less and work hard in the coming month..is the last semester and I am going to graduate soon! haha, damn excited when I think about it. I must make sure myself gone thru the whole semester with a flying color result! *hiak hiak* we shall see. ;)

• successfully graduate for my degree.
• have a nice graduation photo with daddy mummy.♥
• travel for at least 5 countries in my MUST go list!
• work for a part-time.
• update my portfolio, resume and CV.

basically, that's the to do list for myself in this coming months. Oh　yea, I am going back very very soon..for CNY! Can't wait for the date to arrive, I am going to talk and eat non-stop with papa mama..awww...i miss them so badly! Yet but not least, I cant wait to hang out with my dearest gang..See ya! =)